“Dear Fiance, I am writing this letter to you as I feel writing will be an easy way for me to…”

Dear Fiance, I am writing this letter to you as I feel writing will be an easy way for me to express my feelings and let out what I have been carrying in my heart for ten years now. I couldn't bring myself to tell you in person as I am very emotional about this topic and to some extent, I feel so ashamed of myself and I carry a lot of guilt in my heart. I hope you will understand me. When I was in my first year in college, I got involved with some guy who was in his second year. We dated for a few weeks and we started involving ourselves in sexual activities. Unfortunately, I ended up getting pregnant. I was so scared and confused and I didn't know what to do. I could n't tell that guy because I realized he was only interested in sex. I could tell my parents too because they would have been very disappointed with me. I chose not to tell my friends too as I di not trust them very much and I feared they would start spreading rumors on campus. I thought of aborting the pregnancy but my conscious could not let me. In the end I chose to put my child up for adoption. I contacted one of the adoption agencies and they connected me with a very nice couple who wanted to adopt the baby. I told the couple my story and told them I did not want my partner to know. They were very nice and excited to have a baby and they took me in to live with them for the whole duration of my pregnancy and one month after the pregnancy until I was well. I deferred one year of my college education and my parents never got to know about it. After I gave birth I went back to school and the baby was brought up by that couple as their own. I go to visit the baby once or twice a year and she knows that I am her birth mother. She is turning seven years old next month. I know this a lot for you to take in. You can take as much time as you need. Yours in Love, Fiance.