“Dear Husband, There's so much to say all of I what I've already said - now I’m without words…”

Dear Husband, There's so much to say all of I what I've already said - now I’m without words. I struggle to breathe. I long for your touch, your friendship, our partnership. Our family has sacrificed so much. I sit here at work stressing worrying so much. I can't control anything. I can't change you... I can only change myself. I don't trust you, but I have to allow myself to forgive. I lust ask for honesty ... to be true to me. As I am doing to you. I don't know what the future holds where we win end up. But by Gods grace I pray we will stay strong and figure this out together I'm here, handing on waiting for you. I’m not giving up on us. Your wife.