“Dear Friend From Long Ago, I don’t have too many major regrets in my life, but of the few th…”

Dear Friend From Long Ago, I don’t have too many major regrets in my life, but of the few that I have, yours pops into my head most often and the feeling is so bitter-sweet. We’ve been casual friends for a long time. You almost feel like a little brother to me. There is also a little spark there I have felt now and then. No matter what, you were a favorite of mine. One night you drove me home from a party, we were parked outside my apartment and we’re joking and laughing somewhere in there I don’t even remember how you slipped in a “we could go out.“ And I thought you were joking. You said you weren’t, and I was so surprised and shocked. And I couldn’t believe it. So I brushed it off. And we just kept talking and never mentioned it again. I still regret it. Not often, not every day, but I do wonder how much my life would’ve been if I had not been so scared. Until that point, I had maybe three dates in my whole life. You didn’t know that. No one did. But I seriously didn’t know how to act and I had trouble even believing you liked me. I guess I just wanted to say I’m sorry to this day for not going out with you. Your Friend From Long Ago