“Dear E-Girlfriend, I guess I should have written to you years ago, but I didn't have the gut…”

Dear E-Girlfriend, I guess I should have written to you years ago, but I didn't have the guts to do it. It took me a long time to grow as a person and become mature, this was the only way I was able to look back and realize the mistakes I had done, including hurting you so deeply. I wanted to say I'm extremely ashamed of the way I broke up with you. You didn't deserve that in a million years, and I should at least have given you a warning or told you the truth, but I chose the coward way. I was a weak man and I'm so sorry for not considering your feelings. You were right, as always, I was cheating on you... How could I!? I was so stupid!! And this might sound like a poor excuse but I didn't think of the consequences, I was being dumb and immature, and putting everything to lose without realizing it. That was the worst mistake of my life and because of it, I have lost the most bright, funny, lively, and beautiful woman I've ever met. I know my words probably mean nothing to you now, and rightfully so, but I just wanted you to know that you were the love of my life, and I regret my actions and miss you every single freaking day. Deep down I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me someday and give the new person a chance to cherish you and treat you like the amazing woman you are. There isn't a day I don't regret what I did, I miss you so much, and love you with all my heart. - An Old Lover