“To My Unborn child, Until the day I heard that you were coming to me I never know what ac…”

To My Unborn child, Until the day I heard that you were coming to me I never know what actual true love was. Sometimes when I think about you, the love that I feel actually makes my chest physically hurt. Please know that this is true before you consider the rest of this letter because the truth is that when I thought about everything that it means to have you in my life I am more scared than I have ever been before in my life. I am so scared of the actually thought of birth that I wish that I could keep you inside of me forever. And then when you do arrive I'm terrified of what it means to keep you safe. I am so excited to meet you but I do not know how I am going to keep you safe. At least in here, I know you are happy. The world is a scary place and I am not sure that I can protect you. Dearest little seed, I will never let you see this letter or tell you how scared I am. I will just be your mama and try to make you happy all of the time. When you are here I will love you and try to hide the things that are scary. I will try to help you to be confident and to see the good in people even when I just want to wrap you in cotton and wool and hide you away. I love you Seed, Love, Mom