“Hi Friend, I'm writing because there's something I want to get off my chest. I don't really …”

Hi Friend, I'm writing because there's something I want to get off my chest. I don't really know how to talk about it. Four years ago my youngest brother died in a car accident. It's destroyed my family. I've never felt so lost in my life. What I've never shared with anyone, though, is that I still message his Snapchat account nearly every week. I tell him things about my week, about our family almost like a journal. I know I'll never get a response, but it makes me feel closer to him. Sometimes I'm afraid someone will somehow notice and judge me for it, but I don't care it's been four years since we lost him and I'm just as angry and lost without him as ever. I'd do absolutely anything to be able to talk to him again, but I know I can't, so for now, at least, I have his memory and our late-night Snapchat messages. Me.