“To a woman I hurt, It's been over 4 years since we last spoke. We ended our relationship wit…”

To a woman I hurt, It's been over 4 years since we last spoke. We ended our relationship with "forgiveness", but I still think about it all the time. I don't feel like you truly forgave me, nor do I feel that you ever fully understood the reasons I acted how I did. I'm not even sure I remember anymore - it seems like so long ago, I'm not even the same person anymore. I heard your mother passed away. I'm So sorry I couldn't write or send a card. I figured you'd be more hurt by it than anything. My mom died last April. I know you shouldn't care, but I wish we were still close and could've been there for each other. I think we'd still be able to be friends if we tried. I'm sorry for the way I treated you. I was selfish and scared. You were one of the first people to ever give me unconditional love, and I just abused it. I hope you know I appreciated it back then, I just didn't know how to show it. I think we both were going through things that didn't allow us to remain friends. I hope someday maybe we will talk again. I would love to get to be your friend again. - An old friend