“To whom it may concern: Why did you do all of that stuff to me when I was younger? It changed me,…”

To whom it may concern: Why did you do all of that stuff to me when I was younger? It changed me, both mentally and physically. I know I did not show it. As I was a Silent child. But you stole my childhood away, I sometimes wonder what I would have done and accomplished if you would have left me alone. I guess even after all of these years I still do not understand why or how you could hurt a child the way you hurt me. I know you and your wife helped my mom with money growing up while I was young. Did she know what you were doing to me at night? Did you violate my sister the same way you did me? I really hope not. They are the reasons I did not say anything. Also, you were so big and powerful, after all, I was only a child who looked up to you. I do not blame you. You will have to live with what you did to me. You also have to live without knowing joy. I also use to hate you but somehow I have forgiven you. I know you do not deserve it but I do, I deserve to be happy and that means that I have to forgive.