“To the lady I love, I am writing to you this letter to try and help you understand the situation…”

To the lady I love, I am writing to you this letter to try and help you understand the situation that was happening that hindered me to be committed to you while you had needed me so much and sacrificed also for me. I am very sure that I was your first love and that it meant everything to you. You were so happy being with me and I knew I would crumble your world if I told you why. I really never reciprocated the way I should. The secret was that I had another lady that I also loved and was kind of my first love. So we had the same situation only in the opposite direction. When I met you, this other girl was in a different state and she never kept in touch due to unavoidable circumstances as I came to learn later. Things didn’t go well with her and they had to leave Texas to go to take it to their grandfather’s home. We had shared a lot with her and I had promised to be with her no matter what. She never communicated back, but I felt we were still connected somehow and that one day I could find her. I met you during this period and you were a great friend to me and we got close. You are a gentle soul and I knew I never wanted to hurt you and always wanted you to be happy. This made me hide this other secret just for the purpose of making you happy! I know we got closer than I expected and you were sure in your heart that we will end up together. My mistake was hiding my other promise to the other lady and you never suspected anything! I am sorry that when she emerged, I had to leave you that way and disappoint you that much. Your tears made me regret not telling you the whole truth. You always told me I was your first love! I never told you the whole truth. I am very sorry for keeping that secret from you for that long hence breaking your heart so much eventually. I really hope that you picked yourself up and that you healed completely. I let you down on that but I was split up in the middle in my heart. Your good old friend.