“DEAR LOVELY PERSON, MEETING YOU HAS BEEN AN EXCITING TIME IN MY LIFE. I WAS LOST IN WHAT LOVE WAS.…”

DEAR LOVELY PERSON, MEETING YOU HAS BEEN AN EXCITING TIME IN MY LIFE. I WAS LOST IN WHAT LOVE WAS. I WAS SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE WHO ALTHOUGH I ALREADY HAD A CONNECTION WITH, WAS NOTHING COMPARED TO WHAT WE HAVE. THE BEGINNING WAS LIKE I WAS ON CLOUD NINE, FLOATING IN HEARTS AND SUGAR. WE LAUGHED, TALKED FOR HOURS, ENJOYED EACHOTHER'S PRESENCE. I THOUGHT I HAD FINALLY MET SOMEONE WHO LOVED ME FOR ME. TO BE HONEST, I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE THESE DEPENDENCY ISSUES. I ALWAYS YEARN FOR THE THINGS I ALREADY HAVE, DELIVERED BY THE PEOPLE WHO ALREADY SURROUND ME. THERE'S A HUGE GAPING HOLE IN MY HEART THAT I WISHED AND HOPED THAT WOULD BE COVERED UP BY YOU AND AS OUR RELATIONSHIP PROGRESSED, I LEARNED THAT THAT WASN'T THE CASE. I FEEL EVERY SILENCE. I HEAR EVERY EMPTY PROMISE. THAT EMOTION CANNOT BE COVERED BY "I LOVE YOU'S" AND VIDEO CALLS. I AM THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO NEEDS VALIDATION. I HAVE TRAVERSED THROUGH LIFE NOT FEELING EVERYONE'S LOVE SO WHEN I FINALLY THOUGHT I GOT WHAT I WANTED, I THOUGHT IT WASN'T TRUE OR REALISTIC. I DO NOT KNOW WHERE WE WILL END UP. I WISH I COULD FORESEE THE FUTURE, BUT I CANNOT. I THINK I HAVE REALIZED THAT LIFE IS WORTH LIVING AND SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO DO IT ALONE. I WANT TO BE COMFORTABLE IN MY INDIVIDUALITY. I WANT TO BE HAPPY BY MYSELF AND BEING WITH YOU HAS MADE ME REALIZE THAT I'M NOT HAPPY BEING ALONE OR WITH YOU. BEST REGARDS, YOUR FRIEND