“I have had several people in my life die. I had felt a connection to them in my backyard. When I…”

I have had several people in my life die. I had felt a connection to them in my backyard. When I need guidance or missed them I will go into my backyard and speak to them. I have many times asked them how I should handle a situation and I truly feel like they are listening and they will guide the people to me that need my help. I know if I told anyone they would think I was nuts, so I don’t tell them. It helps me like praying to a God. Even if it really isn’t going to make a difference, it always helps me feel like I am more centered than I previously was before I talked to them. When 9-11 happened, I felt so sad. I went to that place in my backyard and I felt them all. I knew I could talk to them there and it made me feel better. There isn’t any other place in the world that I have felt this way. I specifically talk to my brother, ex-boyfriend, and ex-husband. Also my mother. There have been times my mother has shown me that I am on the right path. When we were emptying her condo after she died, we came across an envelope that had a note that said “he took every last dime.“ I never really felt close to her when she was alive but after she died I felt closer to her. Almost like we were best friends. When I was taking up the old plywood floors I found a dime under the plywood that had been there for over 30 years.