Dear Friend, Sometimes my thoughts clog my mind. Do you ever have that happen? When I can't share something in my heart, it just seems to weigh heavier on me. Two months ago was the anniversary of my brother's death. It's the first year I haven't been able to be home and spend time with my parents. Thanks, Corona. What I've never told anyone, though, is how badly, sometimes, I wish it had been me in that car accident and not my brother. He was set to inherit and run the family business. He was the one carrying on our family name. So many futures ended when his life ended. It's hard not to feel insane with the grief, sometimes. I know m family would be sad & I know I am loved, but I feel like my absence wouldn't have been nearly as... obtrusive? As his was. I miss him every single day. Sorry for being sad, Me.