“To My Beautiful Blonde Twin, (Remember when we first truly met, it was because everyone thought…”

To My Beautiful Blonde Twin, (Remember when we first truly met, it was because everyone thought we were twin sisters? I miss you terribly! Rarely does a day go by when you're not in the forefront of my mind. I still grieve your family's loss. I live for the loss of you in my life. For so many years, I felt terribly quilty - like, I could have saved you. I was supposed to be there at the party with you. Had my family not had obligations, I would have been could. Could I have saved you or changed anything? That is the question that haunts me to this day. I find peace that our previous quarrels were resolved prior to your death. You were the most amazing & close friend I've ever had. You introduced me to people and a world that shaped and changed my life. You used to break my heart, threatening self-harm when I'd go on dates. I never told anyone about that. I am so very thankful that's not and how your life came to an end. I'm glad you realized that I didn't & never would choose a guy over our friendship. The great cloud of your death did offer a silver lining. I would have never found myself with my then-boyfriend, now husband. We have a beautiful family, our son shares your birthday. If that's not a sign that you are with us, I don't know what is. :) I love you & am so thankful for having you in my life. Love Always