“Dear Friend, I know it’s been a while since we’ve talked, and that is partially my fault. I know…”

Dear Friend, I know it’s been a while since we’ve talked, and that is partially my fault. I know after we broke up I lashed out at you and I feel guilty and ashamed about the behavior. I was just so very much in love with you and I was planning my future around you. I never told you or anyone else for that matter that I planned on proposing to you. I just wish I had told you how I truly felt before it all came crashing down around me. I wish I had had the strength and courage to fight for you, for us. I never told you about my fears of what the future might hold. I never told you about the fact that I was already planning on moving for you, even to the detriment of not being able to see my kids as often. I miss you so much. I miss talking to you and even just sitting with you in silence. My heart breaks every time I see a picture of you with me or the kids. I miss watching a show together. It hurts so much that we really speak anymore, even though he wanted to stay friends. It just doesn’t seem like a friendship anymore at this point. I don’t feel like I can tell you about what is going on in my life anymore, even though you used to be the first person I will come to you when I was having a rough day or I was having difficulty with the kids. We haven’t talked in so long and at this point, I just don’t even think you care anymore. That hurts so much, to know that we spent so much time together, and then it seems to have been absolutely nothing to you when it meant everything to me. I don’t know what I did wrong, but at this point, I don’t really care as much. I will always care about you and I will always remember the good times we shared. Unfortunately, I will also remember the way I have been treated after. I never expected everything to go back to normal, but I figured I deserved better than what I received. For what it’s worth, I’m truly sorry things didn’t work out between us. I wish you nothing but the best and hope your life is full of love and joy. Even if it isn’t with me.