“Dear Ex Best Friend, I think about you a lot. We haven’t spoken in 3 to 4 years now and that still…”

Dear Ex Best Friend, I think about you a lot. We haven’t spoken in 3 to 4 years now and that still bothers me. I met you in the US and ever since then we were like Cheech and Chong lol. I never wanted to leave your side. I’m about to turn 31, and since our “falling out,“ my heart still hurts over the fact that we don’t communicate at all. You just stopped talking to me, but why??? It’s even more confusing to comprehend because at that time, I was the only person you could talk to about anything. I know you were going through changes (you quit your job, relationship issues, etc.) but my support for you never changed. I blamed myself for losing your friendship. Started asking myself questions about whether or not I was there for you or if I was just a bad friend in general. I was so hurt and confused that at one point (lol) I questioned my sexuality because I missed you so much. I wasn’t used to that type of hurt. I asked myself “did I just miss you a lot or did I unknowingly fall in love with you?“ All I knew for sure was that my heart was broken. I’m not in love with you but I was in love with your spirit. You were there for me when I needed you the most, your support was very important and you were just fun to hang out with. Regardless of everything I will always love you and keep you in my prayers. Just want to let you know that you will always have a friend in me and that I thank you for the years we have shared together. Hopefully, we can talk in the future. Cheech