“I was thinking about everything that was said last year. I realized that you don’t want to be…”

I was thinking about everything that was said last year. I realized that you don’t want to be anything more than friends. And sure it hurts, but I get it. But at the same time it doesn’t mean I don’t love you anymore, it means I love you as a friend because right now you need friends the most. And I want to be there for you. Even if you don’t want or need me I want to be there for you. I know I’ve told you this before, but I’m gonna tell you again. You are one of my best friends. Even if you only think of me as a friend that’s ok. I want you to know that I consider you as one of my best friends. I know you have been through so much, and the last thing I want to do is make your life harder. I want to make your life easier, and possibly be the only thing in your life that isn’t complicated. And for that to happen I have to take a step back and realize that being more than friends at this point is not the right thing right now. I want you to know that even if you don’t want to talk to me about anything, I will be there for you as a friend, but me always being there for you and waiting for you to feel the same way I should stop because if you don’t feel the same way, and I wait for you forever I’m setting myself up for some major heartache, and I don’t want that. I told an old friend of mine not too long ago that even if we are not friends anymore if you ever want to talk I will never turn you away. And I’m going to tell you something similar. Even if you don’t feel the same way or just because you don’t want to talk to me, but there comes a time you do I will never turn you away. I was thinking about you and our friendship, and how my last boyfriend didn’t like the fact that we were friends. Which I didn’t care what he thought, but I was thinking about it. If we were ever to get back together, and he told me he didn’t want us to be friends anymore I would break up with him right then and there because first off I can’t imagine not being friends. But also you are just too important to me. You need someone that you can turn to that will never hurt you. If someone is going to tell me I can’t be friends with you I wouldn’t listen. And I know I’ve made some mistakes by pushing you too far, and I’m sure I’ve done something else wrong. But I can’t imagine not talking to you, not being a part of your life, and not being friends. I also have to be the person to catch you when you fall. What I mean by that is when you do something dumb, and you need help I’ll be there because that’s what a real friend does. Even if that’s all I do, I’m still gonna be there to catch you. I can’t let go now. If I can’t date you the least I can do is be there for you as a friend through your hardest times. That’s what I'll do. And I don’t care if that’s all that I do for you. Love you forever and always.