“To my sister-in-law, I know we aren't on good terms and haven't been in years. I know everyone…”

To my sister-in-law, I know we aren't on good terms and haven't been in years. I know everyone thinks I'm just mad at you, and I am. But what I'm too embarrassed to admit is that I was extremely hurt by what felt like rejection from you. My own sister had mental health issues and treated me horribly. I always wanted a sister that loved and accepted me so when you married my husband's brother I was really excited about it. I felt like that was my chance to have that sister relationship I never had. But when my dad got sick and died the year of your wedding and we weren't able to travel to it, I honestly thought you'd be understanding of the tough situation we were in. I did not expect the you for the past six reaction I got. So when you deleted me off Facebook and wouldn't respond to my messages, I was heartbroken. I know live avoided you probably think I'm just mad but it is so much more than that. It affected me really badly and I started having panic attacks and I don't want to admit to anyone that it still bothers me deeply to this day. I hope one day we can talk and smooth things out so we can at least be in the same room together. Your sister-in-law