“4:21 pm Why am I so sad? Not only does nobody like me, but I don't even like myself. There is…”

4:21 pm Why am I so sad? Not only does nobody like me, but I don't even like myself. There is nothing to life. I don't leave my house, I don't play sports, I don't go to clubs, I don't go to school games. I'm 3 days into my senior year of high school and have no classes with my best friend R. She is now on the football team (JV), so we can't even do anything after school because she has to practice. Even if she didn't, I still don't think I would hang out with her because I'm a really sad, awful person, without a great friend from freshman year. I also have my coach with me. I have talked over summer with her and everything was fine, but every time I've seen her in the hallway so far, it seems like she hates me. And she probably does, now that we don't have classes together. She has no reason to get along with me. It's a shame because I really liked her, but that's what I get for not being social. My arm is hurting from writing so fast, but this is what I deserve and I have no choice but to keep going. I don’t know why anyone would want to be with me anyway. I don’t do any sports or workout and probably never will. I’m 15, but only weigh 115 pounds. I’m way to skinny, but I have a flabby stomach.