“TO THE WOMAN I LOST, I WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW WHERE MY FEELINGS FOR YOU CURRENTLY STAND. I A…”

TO THE WOMAN I LOST, I WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW WHERE MY FEELINGS FOR YOU CURRENTLY STAND. I AM STILL MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU. WHEN THINK ABOUT YOU AND HOW I ENDED UP HURTING YOU, MY HEARTACHES. WHILE I'M CURRENTLY IN A RELATIONSHIP THAT IS VERY FRUITFUL, I STILL CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU. BURDENED WITH GUILT ON A DALLY BASIS. I KNOW I SHOULD BE MORE APPRECIATIVE OF MY WIFE. SHE MEETS ALL OF MY NEEDS AND A FEW OF MY WANTS. HOWEVER, I KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE ONLY WOMAN WHO CAN MAKE ALL OF MY DESIRES AND FANTASIES COME TRUE. I STILL SEE YOUR FACE IN MY MIND AS IF IT WERE YESTERDAY. YOUR BEAUTIFUL TAN SKIN AND LONG HAIR CAPTIVATE ME. I CAN'T STOP THINKING AND DREAMING ABOUT YOU. THEY ARE ALWAYS BEAUTIFUL DREAMS. HOWEVER, I AM AWAYS AWAKENED BY THE SAME NIGHTMARE. I ALWAYS PRAY THAT THE NIGHTMARE ISN'T TRUE. I'm HAUNTED EVERY TIME I REALIZE THAT I'M ONCE AGAIN DISREGARDING YOUR AFFECTIONS. ONCE AGAIN I'M AVOIDING YOU AND TREATING YOU AS THOUGH YOU DON'T MATTER. ONCE AGAIN I'M BOLDLY QUESTIONING YOU ABOUT WHY ANYONE WOULD LOVE YOU. I CAN NEVER SEEM TO CHANGE THIS MY DREAMS. I ALWAYS DO THE SAME STUPID AND PAINFUL THINGS. TIME SEEMS TO BE MOVING SO FAST DURING THESE NIGHTMARES. THEN IT COMES SCREECHING HALT. MANY TIMES I WISH THAT MY HEART WOULD DO THE SAME SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS PAIN ANYMORE. I ALWAYS HAVE TO FACE THE REALITY OF HOW BAD I HURT YOU. YOU HAD BEGUN TO SHOW ME THAT YOU TRULY LOVED ME AND I THREW IT ALL AWAY. I WAS MORE FOCUSED ON MY EGO AND THE SHALLOW WHISPERINGS TO TRULY VALUE YOU. I GUESS THIS IS WHAT THEY MEAN BY NOT BEING PREPARED FOR OPPORTUNITY. I MADE MY BED AND I HAVE TO LIE IN IT. I SAY GOODBYE FOREVER TO THE GREATEST LOVE I EVER KNEW. YOUR FOOLISH AND LOVING FRIEND.